Readers who know me well know what's going on over here at Vermont Shortbread Company, but occasional readers...forgive me for being remiss about this blog, my business, and for keeping you wondering what the heck is going on at Vermont Shortbread Company.
I could write a book about the past year of my life (and I probably will) - going from full time corporate employee with part time entrepreneurial aspirations then back to full time corporate employee who realizes she does not want to be the CEO of anything. Failure? I think not. Recognizing what one wants and doesn't want in work and life can never be called failure. Yet, corporate America gets such a bad rap these days and working for oneself can seem so glorious. And personally, I've had a pretty big chip on my shoulder about independence, not needing a man to support me, not needing a conventional job, not needing much of anything for a long time.
The chip is dissolving.
If you read my blog even a year ago, I did nothing but winge and moan about big business and how much I wanted out of the IBM environment. When I got laid off in 2007, I felt relieved, even blessed. And now I'm back in corporate America. Guess what, I feel relieved and blessed again.
In March of this year I joined National Life Group in Montpelier, Vermont working in corporate communications. I don't love my job; I adore it and I am passionate about the company I work for. If I don't feel the love, I can't do a job well...I can't even fake it. Now, I wake up every day excited to go to work, thrilled that I get paid to be who I am (a creative, marketing, writer-chick with just enough technical savvy to stay abreast of cutting edge communications) AND they pay me to be me. Wow, that's a first. All the benefits of my entrepreneurial life with the security of a regular paycheck...I would have never guessed this possible a year ago.
Vermont Shortbread Company is still in business, although on a much smaller scale...for now. I do intend to have it all, but I need to take a few steps back and figure out how to work smarter. That's never been a strength of mine. 80 hour workweeks, single parenting, and juggling several jobs simultaneously left me burnt out, unhealthy and spiritually and financially empty. For now, I'm focusing on one thing at a time (my new job) and I'm working on figuring out how to get Vermont Shortbread Company the help it needs to grow into a force for Walkers Shortbread to reckon with. I don't know quite how to do that...yet.
Right now, I just want to smell the roses. Do one job well. Take some vacations. Enjoy my daughter's last few years at home. Write. Write. Write.
A few years ago, I once determined that my mission in life was "to observe and record". I know this is true because I feel it in every cell. So, that's my focus for now. It is what I was born for.
Much of the recording will be here on this blog, so please come back.